Yesss eventually, hahaha.

Sorry for the previous post, I just felt funny for myself. saying I'm coming back and then postpone for such long period of time makes me want to laugh at myself, so that's where the emotion come from :P

There's a lot of things happened in my life, and it's making it even more hard to post something out 'cause there's just too much. But I decided at last to throw away most of things but update the current. now I should stop all these meaningless explanation :)




CI Trip



Time flies so fast. I remembered that just three years ago I was still one of the kid - that was naughty and love to stick with the teacher - and now I finished all the seminar and become one of the teachers. And as I expected, I enjoyed very much :) Here's the list,

1. Wearing high heels is painful. My feet were seriously dead after.

2. Strange, but I get used of wearing skirts now. Jeans felt tight these days. 

3. I sort of jealous the guys. They can wear cool ties.

4. Road-finding idiot like me knows how to take MRT by myself now. this definitely deserved a BIG yay, yes?

5. I learned that I should always charged my cellphone, or it'll occured some kind of trouble. For example, getting lost and got no one to pick you up at the station 'cause you have no contact tools to contact your cousin and you forgot his number . Thanks to Irvine for this, he's my angel of the day                                                          

6. Being bilingual is such a gift.

7.Interpreter is lot harder than I thought. It got better now, by practices.

8. Am I really a teacher? I felt like I've been taught by more than teaching others the whole trip  

9. I enjoyed my morning dates with Deb. Reading God's words together and pray for each other at the start of the day is SO helpful. I always felt strenghen up after it. But perhaps next time we should find some other location instead of McDonald's 8-)    

                                                                                                                                                                  10.The most importantly, I've deepened my relationship with God during the week. From the start of the week, I was exhausted. I don't feel prepared at all for CI, and be honest, I felt like I don't really even have the example of good christian, how can I be teaching? I told Deb about it when we're having our first breakfast date, we prayed for it, and in that day, just that day after we pray. God showed himself, the presence of his is just so real that I was stunned of it. "Don't be afraid, I'm here, you're found" Tim - the staff of CI, playing a shepherd on the stage said. My tears just dropped down, and in that day, that moment, my heart was released. He, the Johavah Raah, the shepherd, controls my life. He's here, everyday, every moment, and He loves you. But just like the shepherd, he sometimes have to breaks the legs of naughty sheep, 'cause they cannot see what's in the front, they might be eaten. God sees farther, and everything happened is all in his control. The pains costed tears, but it always make you grow. Before, I just couldn't accept this, I know and I've taught since I was little - that everything happened is planned by God - but I never really believed it. And that's why there's just so much complaints and confusioin in my heart, there's just so much me in my heart, telling myself you can't have weakness because staying strong is the only way to live successfully in this world, and it's not true. God's there, he's actually waiting for you, to open your heart, to lay down and rest in his arms. 

 The week turned to be a blast, met some awesome people And it's always a joy to spending time with the kids. Special thanks to - Skyler(picture 1 left) my partner during the whole week, and yes I know I'm such a great interpreter to have ,Angel(picture 2 right) I learned just SO much from you, thanks for being such a great teacher and friend. I got a blessing partners and fantastic team! Oh and I know there's lot more, but for pictures please go to my Facebook , lazy to upload the pics to the THIRD webpage.

 

Valentine

Hahah yes, Valentine becomes one of the theme in this post. 'Cause it was a blast! Which is not what I expected at first but it turned out to be the one to remember. I was celebrating Valentine this year with my friends. And oh believe me, it's so much fun : DD. I was in Taipei meeting my new Cello teacher in the morning, (I love my new teacher, even though he's a russian so sometimes speak his own language which sounds funny ), then I met up with Crystal's family, we had fun. THEN, Erica texted me. Friends' Valentine hangout tonight. Sounds exciting eh? OF COURSE. So me, Erica, Derek, Brent, Alex -- and my brother :D, he came with me at last for the movie of "Mirley and Me" which we planned to watch, too bad we changed into "He's just not that into you" in the end. But I AM grateful for the change, cause unexpectedly it was fabulous movie ever. I laughed so much. Brent ate my food though D: and he doesn't even know. We also went to Hagaan Daz, delicious delicious. A great valentine, say yes?

 

Everyday

I am going to take a test called GPT in three months preparation- yes, a mission impossible out here. So, most of the day, I'm  doomed in front of the table, studying most of the time. and then sleep. and then practice cello. and jogging. and walking my dog. that's all. So my basic delightful time of the day - will be the time when my baby brother Jeremiah wake up! I always spend at least 30 minutes playing with him in the morning, and that always always always cheer me up

 

Oops, I spend too much time writing. BRB. okay okay yes I meant it! I will be back ;) Sorry for the random update, but at least it's a start. Oh be content my friends :)

 

but I don't really care. I miss here, and it's time to be back. Well, Xanga don't seem to be the place I know anymore though, seriously ,even searching for how to update this cost me long time.  POOPS. I guess it's just never a good thing to stop anything for awhile eh?

 

 

Have you ever felt like have something you desire to tell others but actually because of the "oppression",you'll  have to shut up your mouth? I finally got the permission (from my parent)  to announced what exactly happen to me recently these past weeks. It's still like a dream, I tried to punch my arm everyday to sure this is not a dream, it's the exact reality. And here it is, I'm back to School. Not the local school, it's an America School, it's called Pacific America School (PAS), I've been there for already three weeks. And honestly, it's like a nightmare if you wants me to keep it in secret for so long but surprisingly  I done it quite successfully. (Wait, close friends doesn't count!). I'm kind of scared at the first, to study at America School has always been my dream, but in my judgment, dream is SOMETHING which is hard to happen so that's why we defined it as "dream", so when all of these happen I was quite transfixed and stunned, my mind's like suddenly numb. Everything happen too quickly that I doubt if I ever prepared it even for only one minute. But things just happened, and you wouldn't know how happy I felt. Well, no, there aren't any "normal reactions" I used to have when I'm happy (You know what I mean, for example, dancing around? hahah) But in my soul, yes, I'm really, really happy. My mind's still numb, all words I can express my feeling to others now is : "God is amazing", I worried, I've been buried down byy pressure recently, and sometimes I complained for all of these circumstances. I thought God never listened my prayers, I thought He's never there for me. But now? All of this are more than I deserved, such abundance blessings He has gave me, that I don't even know how to received it.

Oooookay, after all of these mind-stuff, for being responsible, I got to do something before I leave here..

Tag ---
Part 1: On the Outside
Name : Esther Lu
Date of Birth : June/16th/1993
Current Status : Trying to have patient to finish these things =P.
Eye Colour : Dark brown - more black I think.
Hair Colour : You can't say it's brown, but it isn't black either.
Righty or Lefty : Righty

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : Chinese.
Your Fear : Just........fears.
Your Weakness : Hmmmmm
Your Perfect Pizza : Wait, it's the part of "inside"?

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : Awwww be KIND to me, alarm.
Your bedtime : Very late midnight Still trying to sleep earlier.
Your most missed memory : My mind's numb now....

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Either
McDees or Burger King : Burger King!
Single or Group Dates : If HAVE to choose one, I'll choose single dates.
Adidas or Nike : Hmmmm no ideas.
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Nestea I guess?
Chocolate or Vanilla : Can I blended it together?
Cappucino or Coffee : Both are all lovely.

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : I can NOT imagine that.
Curse : Not really.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : Alcohol? It's GROSS.
Gone to the mall : Two weeks ago..
Been on stage : Last week.
Eaten sushi : Last month I guess?
Dyed your hair : Hmmmm pink will be good

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : No ideas.
Changed who you were to fit in : WELL....

Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married : 23-27 (IF I'll able to meet my Mr.Right )

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : it depends on his/her look.
Hair colour : Coffee brown! (But it still depends on...)
Short or long hair : If it's a guy, short hair. Girl, medium long hair.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : What do YOU think?
1 hour ago : Visiting friends.
4 1/2 hours ago : Church I guess, It's Sunday night now..
1 month ago : It's like impossible mission if I still remembered that.
1 year ago : Just start facing the scary GPT placement test.

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : my own fantasize mind!
I feel : outright exhausted.
I hate : someone who judge people through outside.
I hide : the real me to most of the people.
I miss : all my people (sniff)
I need : to find my own passion again...

Part 12: Tag 5 People.
I want to be kind today you know, even though it'll be weird.